It's been months since I have been able to post to my old blog so I'll start another. It sounds as though other people have had this same problem with blogspot, My old blog is titled, "Sand in My Shoes: Mornings with Children," where I posted pictures and antidotes of what our days are like in my family day care. Since I am hoping to retire from this business (close the door) in 2012 it might be more timely than I know, starting a new blog. I can record my journey here toward the window Life opens.
A wise man told me a few years ago that our job is to tell the universe what it is we want and let the Universe, or Life, reveal the HOW. So here it is:
I am going to retire in April 2012 with an income that allows me the freedom to pursue my love of photography ( including new equipment), of writing, as well as new explorations into Mindful Meditation.
What I'm learning is that not only Believing we can have our dream, although that is a close second to having a clear vision of what it is we desire, but Action is the driving force. An example: the other day as I sat on the back porch, drinking my morning coffee and communing with the internal Friend, I looked out at the yard. Weeds are up to my shoulder in places (the compost pile, especially!) and the grass ankle deep again. I just mowed six days ago! but it keeps raining so the lawn thrives. I'm in the middle of a project that I can barely handle, extending the patio and building a box garden just off it. I feared that if I spent two hours mowing the yard I wouldn't have the energy to cut the heavy boards for the box garden. "I need help here!" I said to myself, or so I thought.
Later, as the children slept, I thought, "I can probably mow the back yard at least and get it out of the way before the children wake up." So I began. I'd barely made ten passes when I turned and here was my son (who I have begged to come help me, but he's so busy) walking across the lawn. He mowed every inch of my property, even outside the fence. When we talked later I told him what I'd learned about taking action toward our goal. He said, "had you not been mowing, I would have had a cup of tea with you then left, but since you were mowing, I finished for you." See?
Today it's raining so I created a "Vision Board" with pictures that represent what I want in the not too distant future and believe is on the way to me as I get ready to let it in. My old one is outdated because nearly everything on it came true. I got my new car, my daughter took me to Italy, I seem to have retained my joy of life, etc. So these picture boards work, I'm sure of it.
Now in the new board, there are pictures representing the safe and sound return of my son from the Middle East, some others which represent me following the Writing Life, which includes completion of the Copywriting course I am taking. Other pictures represent the new camera equipment and van for travel to photographic spots, as well as pictures of my new camera and lenses. The middle photos represent a trip to the Mindfulness Meditation Retreat Center in Thailand my son has invited me to attend with him in the spring.
So we'll see. I'll let you know. I feel that is a lot to ask of the Universe, but have heard there is no Big Wish or Small Wish, they are all the same in the Mind of Creation. Or whatever you want to call it.
Meanwhile, there is so much that I am grateful for from the bottom of my heart, right here where I am. Another valuable step in this experiment in co-creating is to feel deeply appreciative for all that comprises my world right here, right now. All the children in my life who delight me from morning until night; my own six grown children, my two dogs and cats who keep me excellent company, my home and all that is in it, more than I'll ever use so I'll explain the last valuable step...clearing, a little each day, and I have to say that with every trip to the thrift store down the street I feel lighter. So light that right now I'm going to float away from this computer and off to my nice warm bed and good book.
